Spring days.

                                                                                                                        May 8, 2013

Dear Jack,

Just thinking about you and wondering how you are doing. I hope you are having a great day.  You are getting so big 2 and ½ wow, time is going by so quickly.  The days are getting warmer and summer is just around the corner, your cousin Boston loves to be outside. I am sure that you do too. 

There are so many great things for you to discover, and I am sure that you are a curious little guy.  Bugs and dirt are endless fun for little boys. Boston can spot and ant from quite a long ways away and loves to play trucks in piles of dirt.  Your daddy and Uncle Josh would practically live outside in the summer, climbing trees, riding bikes and playing with friends. 

Do you like to draw? Do you love music? Do you like dirt bikes and monster trucks like your cousin?  Are you outgoing and funny, or do you have a more mellow personality with a quick but sly since of humor?  Are you talking up a storm, and do you know your colors?  Do you know how much you are loved and missed, because you are so very much?

Jack, we want to know that we are all doing fine though we miss you daily life has continued on.  We have grown and changed because of what has happened over the last 2 ½ years, but it has not all been negative. There has been positive changes as well.  There are new cousins and weddings on the way, there have been fun family gatherings and vacations that are being planned.  Don’t worry about us, we won’t ever give up, but we will also continue to live life to the fullest as we wait for your return. 

Your daddy is doing well. He has big plans and his life is changing fast.  I know that you will be as proud of him as we all are. He is such a fun and loving man. We are so grateful to have him in our family.  He thinks of you and misses you all the time and only wants the best for you. Please always remember that.

If I could say anything to your adoptive parents it would be, we love you and only want the very best for you.  We are grateful to know where you are and that you are being loved and well cared. There is true comfort for your daddy and family in knowing those small yet very important things. So many fathers and families don't have that knowledge.   I understand it is difficult for them to put themselves in your daddy or our shoes; we have tried over and over to put ourselves in theirs.  Over time perhaps they will come to understand why we could never or will never give up on you.  Perhaps they are only listening to their attorney at this time and that is why they have not responded to our multiple requests to share information with them, including but not limited to all medical information.  We truly hope that one day soon they will open their hearts to the fact that you have a daddy and family that loves you and miss you so much. 

Remember Jack as you are reading this one day, this blog was our only way to reach out at the time to you.  It is where we could express our feelings, upcoming events, notices of court actions, as well as show support for others who have experienced the same loss.  This blog was never to cause pain, but instead a way to deal with ours as we wait for you to come home.  We do hope and pray that your adoptive parents will read this and understand that.  We will continue to pray for you and them daily, we truly only want the best for you.

Love

Grandma Jenny