Today has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I feel so blessed to be able to celebrate this holiday (Father's Day). It's because of you Jackson, I am a father, but I feel so empty inside because I haven't been able to meet you. I don't know what you look like, what features you have inherited from me, I don't know about your little quirks and personality and I don't know how well you are developing or what milestones you have reached.
What I do know Jackson, is that I love you more and more each day. My heart is filled with love and is aching inside, just dying to get to know you and bond with you.
I found this poem and I thought that I fit this perfectly...
What is a dad?
A Dad is a personJackson, I can't wait for you to call me dad. Don't worry son it won't be long.
who is loving and kind,
And often he knows
what you have on your mind.
He's someone who listens,
suggests, and defends.
A dad can be one
of your very best friends!
He's proud of your triumphs,
but when things go wrong,
A dad can be patient
and helpful and strong
In all that you do,
a dad's love plays a part.
There's always a place for him
deep in your heart.
And each year that passes,
you're even more glad,
More grateful and proud
just to call him your dad!
author unknown~
Love,
Daddy
That's the same poem I wrote in my dads card for fathers day. It is so sad to hear your story, it brings tears to my eyes. I can't believe someone could be so cruel and heartless. There are so many guys out there who don't even care about or for their children, but yet a man who wants to be there for his child and love and hold them has no rights. You and baby jack are in my prayers, I hope you are able to see your son. My husband had something similar happen to him. Good luck!
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